In which I explain, succinctly this time, what I am doing here.
Published on February 29, 2004
By
monde
In
Misc
JoeUser seems like a pretty straight place. I've had a look around and it's kind of unnerving.
I realize that I'm walking into a hornet's nest here, bringing a very controversial issue that very few understand the way I do, into this fray.
I'm here to learn as well as to teach.
A little background on myself. I'm an ex-junkie who got off heroin in 1992 and since then have gotten myself on something of a mission. When I realized that I might have never tried heroin had I not been lied to about other drugs which were not as damaging to my life, I got angry about the lies and decided I'd do all I could to help right the wrong.
I began using drugs when I was sixteen years of age. If I had it to do over again I would have waited until high school and college were behind me. Today I am less functional than the average head in her thirties. I don't want to be "clean and sober". I DO want to become less introspective since I'm already really good at that, and learn how to balance my mind, budget my time, all those things that help a person function in the world.
A note about comments. Please do not tell me to "get help". I'm already getting as much help as I choose to.
Please do not tell me to stop using. Note that I have given up most drugs already simply because my body can only take so much in its later years. I quit alcohol and cigarettes in the mid nineties and really only have one "vice" - and that's not something I'm willing to give up.
Idiotic insults will be hosed off. Insightful comments will be shared on the blog itself.
I know the last entry was a meandering mess: it was really just a few text files I had lying around, scribbles I'd made while hyper on too much coffee (the legal drugs no one thinks about!) I can be more coherent than that, I assure you.